Internship
in the name of Allah the most gracious and ever merciful
internship.
today dah 30th january.
2 weeks after being interviewed by Petronas
now nak tunggu lagi one week for result.
counting days dengan rasa risau hari hari
un-explain-able feelings everyday
hari hari check mail tau. bangun tidur, sebelum tidur.
sampai aku rasa malas and takut nak cakap dengan my friends, or nak tegur hai, even to join conversation dalam group cause i'm like a silent reader rn and even to talk to arif.
macam malas.
cause in the end, hal internship jugak yang nak di brought up kan (cause it lingers in my head like freaking every moment lagi lagi bila nampak update friends dah secure places and kau belum but i'm happy for them but feeling sad for myself) and.. it will be like a hopeless and sad and no-answer conversation in the end.
takut gaduh in the end dgn Arif. so better diam diam sikit for these few days.
HOWEVER
it feels good to have friends like Iman and Anis and Ira and Zerr who keep on asking, and pushing and updating with me about hal internship ni.
i guess this small circle and personal conversation makes me feel tak serabut sangat and i'm not alone and being able to share those worriedness
i guess i'm tired settling this matter sebab i've been putting my effort even before semester 5 begin and now. dah habis dah pun semester 5. waiting for final result. and i couldnt even secure one place.
how frustrating and demotivated.
it is not that easy to just apply for a company without thinking where are you going to stay, can you go there by yourself, do you know how to get there by yourself, ada kedai makan tak dekat sana, will you be able to survive throughout the whole 4 months..? Alhamdulillah tak clingy sangat dengan kawan kawan. Kalau tak, lagi satu benda nak fikir untuk kasi sama tempat dengan kawan.
its not easy tau. i have to think about my parents lagi. are they ok with the location semua. i cant simply just pick according to what people suggest cause in the end, siapa yang nak lalui semua nanti once you get that placement. i'll be on my own. ma dengan pa bukan dekat.
PJ, Klang, Subang Jaya are not in my list so obviously i'll ignore any company yang ada program for internship. KL and Shah Alam jelah sekarang. Iman had his point where he suggested me to stay dengan budak budak law. Well, kinda theres-a-hope to apply dekat Shah Alam since tempat tinggal dah ada option. But well, depend on any empty rooms or tak pun ada lah clue where to stay walaupun tak bersama diaorang. and Iman is so gooood sebab tolong browsekan logistics company for me untuk apply cause he's having a hard time to secure his placement too and he knew how does it feel sampai kawan2 dia pun push dia untuk mencari sampai dapat and he's doing it to me right now. he even said "kalau boleh jangan extend sem. ni hal masa depan ni". Aku teary gila sebab dah demotivated gila babs dah ni. ishk ishk :(
Tapi how to get to seksyen 22 or that industrial area in shah alam? thats where kena crack kepala with mum and dad how am i going to get there.
Same goes to KL. tempat tinggal dah ada. nak pergi ke company jelah hopefully LRT station yang dah ada, dapat lift up beban ni sikit.
And the reason why rn pun just apply-macam-nak-taknak-apply je sebab time is running out. Dah hantar resume pun, no reply. Dah buat phone calls, tp bagi email yang tak boleh disend. Buat phone calls, tp tak amik internship students.
Serabut tahu tak serabut.
Baru nak internship tapi dugaan dah kuat macam ni.
Taknak cakap "belum kerja lagi" sebab dalam kepala ni nak settle internship dulu. Pasal kerja, letak tepi dulu walaupun i realized that, mungkin akan double lelah dia.
Theres nothing much i can do but to just pray and saaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaabar sangat sangat.
To keep on applying and applying and applying..
I just hope, if i get my placement, i tak lupa this post cause yeah. siapa suka being left with uncertainty. but choices selalu ada.
internship.
today dah 30th january.
2 weeks after being interviewed by Petronas
now nak tunggu lagi one week for result.
counting days dengan rasa risau hari hari
un-explain-able feelings everyday
hari hari check mail tau. bangun tidur, sebelum tidur.
sampai aku rasa malas and takut nak cakap dengan my friends, or nak tegur hai, even to join conversation dalam group cause i'm like a silent reader rn and even to talk to arif.
macam malas.
cause in the end, hal internship jugak yang nak di brought up kan (cause it lingers in my head like freaking every moment lagi lagi bila nampak update friends dah secure places and kau belum but i'm happy for them but feeling sad for myself) and.. it will be like a hopeless and sad and no-answer conversation in the end.
takut gaduh in the end dgn Arif. so better diam diam sikit for these few days.
HOWEVER
it feels good to have friends like Iman and Anis and Ira and Zerr who keep on asking, and pushing and updating with me about hal internship ni.
i guess this small circle and personal conversation makes me feel tak serabut sangat and i'm not alone and being able to share those worriedness
i guess i'm tired settling this matter sebab i've been putting my effort even before semester 5 begin and now. dah habis dah pun semester 5. waiting for final result. and i couldnt even secure one place.
how frustrating and demotivated.
it is not that easy to just apply for a company without thinking where are you going to stay, can you go there by yourself, do you know how to get there by yourself, ada kedai makan tak dekat sana, will you be able to survive throughout the whole 4 months..? Alhamdulillah tak clingy sangat dengan kawan kawan. Kalau tak, lagi satu benda nak fikir untuk kasi sama tempat dengan kawan.
its not easy tau. i have to think about my parents lagi. are they ok with the location semua. i cant simply just pick according to what people suggest cause in the end, siapa yang nak lalui semua nanti once you get that placement. i'll be on my own. ma dengan pa bukan dekat.
PJ, Klang, Subang Jaya are not in my list so obviously i'll ignore any company yang ada program for internship. KL and Shah Alam jelah sekarang. Iman had his point where he suggested me to stay dengan budak budak law. Well, kinda theres-a-hope to apply dekat Shah Alam since tempat tinggal dah ada option. But well, depend on any empty rooms or tak pun ada lah clue where to stay walaupun tak bersama diaorang. and Iman is so gooood sebab tolong browsekan logistics company for me untuk apply cause he's having a hard time to secure his placement too and he knew how does it feel sampai kawan2 dia pun push dia untuk mencari sampai dapat and he's doing it to me right now. he even said "kalau boleh jangan extend sem. ni hal masa depan ni". Aku teary gila sebab dah demotivated gila babs dah ni. ishk ishk :(
Tapi how to get to seksyen 22 or that industrial area in shah alam? thats where kena crack kepala with mum and dad how am i going to get there.
Same goes to KL. tempat tinggal dah ada. nak pergi ke company jelah hopefully LRT station yang dah ada, dapat lift up beban ni sikit.
And the reason why rn pun just apply-macam-nak-taknak-apply je sebab time is running out. Dah hantar resume pun, no reply. Dah buat phone calls, tp bagi email yang tak boleh disend. Buat phone calls, tp tak amik internship students.
Serabut tahu tak serabut.
Baru nak internship tapi dugaan dah kuat macam ni.
Taknak cakap "belum kerja lagi" sebab dalam kepala ni nak settle internship dulu. Pasal kerja, letak tepi dulu walaupun i realized that, mungkin akan double lelah dia.
Theres nothing much i can do but to just pray and saaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaabar sangat sangat.
To keep on applying and applying and applying..
I just hope, if i get my placement, i tak lupa this post cause yeah. siapa suka being left with uncertainty. but choices selalu ada.
ok ayat last aku tu x tau la nak kasi sedapkan hati or nak sedapkan ending post ni.
mana mana jelah.