im just like an average teenage girl outside there. sometimes i'm off the limit. i hurt everyone feelings and say sorry and promise wont do that again. but it goes again and again doing the same thing till the the word I AM SORRY just wont heal the pain and here comes the ignorance. there's nothing i can do but to just stay silent and let time decide.  i cry over small things and laugh like mad even at situation where I'm not supposed to. i hate assignments but i'm the first one who submit it. i make notes just to help me in my studies but it turned to be like a drawing cause i love to use colourful pens. i sing in my class when i'm bored or while waiting for my lecturer till my classmates are immune and they just wont ask me to shut up any more. sometimes i'll just stay silent with my stereo on. i online till my eyes hurts and cursed myself for being sleepy inside the class the next day. i laugh out loud and giggles when i'm skyping till my roomates looked at me with that WHAT ARE YOU LAUGHING AT look. i promised to spent wisely but it goes way around when i saw BASKIN ROBIN and again.. i cursed myself for not being self controlled. when i'm  down, i'll just strummed till im tired and i crashed.  i turned on my stereo when i sleep till i wake up and realised my earplug is at the end of my bed. first thing that i do when i go back home after class is online with my shawl and jeans and anything that i'm wearing on till my roomates says i am such a weirdo. i only eat when i feel i want to and when i get gastric, i think of my mum.. how i missed her so much. so, this is me. the annoying, unpredictable, petite and not so so matured. i'm learning everyday and meeting new people everyday and prioritize what should be the priority. forgive me if i hurt you so deeply. i'm not perfect. i make mistakes and try to be better next time. 

sigh. 

u keep saying this farah.

u just cant satisfy everyone.